Had the 2nd of 2 epidurals last night

So far so good. The last steroid injection, taken back April 2nd, was a tremendous success. Whereas the three I received last year had benefits that were tenuous and short lasting these seem to be helping me progress towards a place that is kinda back where I was before the injury happened. Monday and Tuesday I had taken walks of up to five blocks with leg pain that was barely noticeable. My lunch breaks were not wracked with leg pain. It was a joy. While my back pain doesn’t seem to be subsiding, it’s my leg pain that concerns me, what has been limiting my outdoors activities so much this past year and a half. The back pain is manageable with good body mechanics, getting up and about every hour, exercise, good diet, good ergonomics at work and at home (it is at home that I need to correct things – at work my workstation is simple, but gets the job done).

I’m keeping my fingers crossed, but I am looking forward to strapping my guitar back on and inviting my friends over to hang out. Not only that, but to socialize in the flesh again. Most important – just taking long walks with Emma and Richelle, going to the zoo, going down the shore, maybe even a few family trips that I have been avoiding because of pain and not wanting to be a drag.

Around My Web Of Co-Workers and Ex-Co-Workers

Rajiv Pant, my former manager at Knight Ridder, shares some thoughts about the Future of Content Management for News Media for Web sites.

The apartment of Jesse, a co-worker at CIM, was robbed. He posted pictures of the culprit and thru social media like Digg got some justice: McFearsome: Blog Archive – WOW, You’re a MORON!

Anandhan Subbiah, my manager at CIM, has a post up about the horror of Seal culling.

Jon Moore discusses REST as Unix programming for the Web.

And Arpit, CIM Flash extraordinaire, celebrates his 100th post.

And congrats to Gabo on becoming UX Lead for Joost.

From the Philly Future side of things, Howard Hall’s poetry is a daily must read for me.

Albert Yee is going to have his photography highlighted this Friday.

And Scott is putting up a podcast about moving in with Marisa.

Sing A Song

The night before Mom’s funeral, we were driving around Fox Chase, making arrangements, and Emma, from her car seat, sung.

“Sing, sing a sonnnnng”

One of the many songs Richelle and me sing to her, that it would be this one that she would sing first, the night before Mom’s laying to rest, meant everything to me, and was so unexpected (we had thought it would be “Row your boat” – for reasons I’ll share sometime).

A great version by Dan Hardin

The Karen Carpenter version that is Richelle’s favorite and was a hit in the 70s

Sing
Sing a song
Sing out loud
Sing out strong
Sing of good things, not bad
Sing of happy, not sad

Sing
Sing a song
Make it simple
To last your whole life long
Don’t worry that it’s not good enough
For anyone else to hear
Sing
Sing a song

La la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la

Sing
Sing a song
Sing out loud
Sing out strong
Sing of good things, not bad
Sing of happy, not sad

Sing
Sing a song
Make it simple
To last your whole life long
Don’t worry that it’s not good enough
For anyone else to hear
Sing
Sing a song

And a great Tripod page Sing.

Happy Easter

Emma is waking up at her grandparents right now and Richelle and me are just getting out of bed, making calls, and getting ready for the day. It’s a tradition we started last year, that I’m looking forward to as the years come.

Easter is a weird holiday, in that, as the article from Slate states below, has resisted commercialization and has retained much of its religious meaning. Having grown up in a house without organized worship of any kind, I don’t have many memories of Easter eggs or baskets. In fact, my fondest memory of Easter is one of recent years – that of my mom, calling me the night before from the nursing home, reminding me to bring her a chocolate egg.

That egg was important to her. To her, a Catholic who had doubts about the faith’s practices, Easter had to do with family and new beginnings.

I think the tradition we are setting up with Emma, with Richelle’s parents, is very much in keeping with that.

The events in Christ’s life, death and resurrection, point you in that direction, thinking about renewal, and what it means for your faith – for your life.

Every year I kick myself at not getting back in the habit of going to church. A habit I had only a short while as an adult that ended when Hunter, my nephew, died immediately after my confession on Saturday, September 15th 2001. A few days after 9/11.

For so many, they find solace in religion during times like that. I wish I could be like that. My instinctual reaction was the opposite.

As I get older, I am starting to realize that doubt, reason and faith are not necessarily at odds. That it is we human beings that demand straight lines and simple rules to dictate our universe and paradoxes upset our world so mightily that it can be hard to face the day when any light is shone on them.

tonypierce + happy easter:

today is one of the most holy days for Christians around the world.
today is the day that the Christian messiah, Jesus, came down from Heaven
and walked around and said, see, told ya I’m God.
everyone pretty much freaked out.

funny thing about Christians, they basically run the world
yet when it comes to their holiest days they act ashamed.
instead of wearing t-shirts that say Jesus
or putting a nice picture of Jesus on their door
or a nice poster of Jesus in their window
and say, Right On, Jesus,
they buy candy and paint eggs and hide them
and wear hats and have brunch
just like they’ve never even heard of Jesus
and dont marvel at what he did for them.

they act like dirty heathens, basically.

…the good book says that it’s not
the things that go in our mouths
that we should worry about
it’s the things that come out
of our mouths
that matter.

…get yourself in situations
where you get to say some badass shit

Slate: Happy Crossmas!:

Despite the awesome theological implications (Christians believe that the infant lying in the manger is the son of God), the Christmas story is easily reduced to pablum. How pleasant it is in mid-December to open a Christmas card with a pretty picture of Mary and Joseph gazing beatifically at their son, with the shepherds and the angels beaming in delight. The Christmas story, with its friendly resonances of marriage, family, babies, animals, angels, and—thanks to the wise men—gifts, is eminently marketable to popular culture. It’s a Thomas Kinkade painting come to life.

On the other hand, a card bearing the image of a near-naked man being stripped, beaten, tortured, and nailed through his hands and feet onto a wooden crucifix is a markedly less pleasant piece of mail.

The Easter story is relentlessly disconcerting and, in a way, is the antithesis of the Christmas story. No matter how much you try to water down its particulars, Easter retains some of the shock it had for those who first participated in the events during the first century. The man who spent the final three years of his life preaching a message of love and forgiveness (and, along the way, healing the sick and raising the dead) is betrayed by one of his closest friends, turned over to the representatives of a brutal occupying power, and is tortured, mocked, and executed in the manner that Rome reserved for the worst of its criminals.

We may even sense resonances with some painful political issues still before us. Jesus of Nazareth was not only physically brutalized but also casually humiliated during his torture, echoing the abuses at Abu Ghraib. In 21st-century Iraq, some American soldiers posed prisoners with women’s underwear on their heads as a way of scorning their manhood. In first-century Palestine, some Roman soldiers pressed down a crown of thorns onto Jesus’ head and clothed him in a purple robe to scorn the kingship his followers claimed for him. After this, Jesus suffered the most degrading of all Roman deaths: crucifixion. Jesus remains the world’s most famous victim of capital punishment.

To his followers, therefore, his execution was not only tragic and terrifying but shameful. It is difficult not to wonder what the Apostles would have thought of a crucifix as a fashion accessory. Imagine wearing an image of a hooded Abu Ghraib victim around your neck as holiday bling.

slacktivist: Practice resurrection

Hope you had a great St. Patrick’s Day

Even though you wouldn’t know it by my name – I’m Irish. It’s something I was was dimly aware of as a teenager, and something I’ve come to embrace as I’ve gotten older and realized my last name isn’t that of my biological father.

So what is St. Patrick’s Day? According to my friend Ron and a link he posted, something mighty bad. According to David Plotz at Slate, something to take pause of and be thankful for.

Me? The lack of cultural upbringing I had leads me to think of something far more recent – the North Ireland peace process and the hope it brings for the world. Differences that seem intractable and unbridgeable can be met. And not always does it need to lead to blood.

And yeah, I’ll have a drink to that.

Google criticized for helping homeless ‘gimmick’

 : who we are:

the things we accept,
those we defend without shame,
reveal who we are.

You would think a company expanding a service that helps homeless get off the streets (by providing them with a consistent means of being contacted) would be a non-controversial thing.

After all, providing one service to the homeless (lets say clothes) doesn’t preclude providing other services (lets say, job training, or housing). And having choices for services isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Thankfully we have a number of service providers for homeless families and individuals in our area.

But you would think wrong.

Both Mathew Ingram and Michael Arrington let Google have it for trumpeting its involvement in San Francisco’s Project Homeless Connect especially when alternatives like Community Voice Mail exist.

In fact, I’d say the verdict from the digerati – overall – was cynical and negative.

All I know is that I wish – I wish – services like these existed when I fought through my bout of living on the streets. I know from experience how important it is to have a steady means of contact when looking for work, dealing with family, or simply finding a place to sleep.

CNet: Google expands free phone number and voicemail project.

Happy Birthday Emma!

It was a bit of a quandary Saturday. It was to be Emma’s birthday party, but last week she was suffering with a double ear infection (painful!!!!). Hoping against hope that she would be better in time for the party, and tricked by a great Friday evening, we were forced to call folks Saturday morning and cancel. Instead, we just had close family come by, that we both could continue to concentrate on her illness.

The irony was that Sunday, while Richelle went out to run some errands, Emma started to come out of it all the way and by the evening was herself again!

Today is Emma’s real birthday. Happy birthday Emma!

Here’s to 2008

If you know anyone who would like to be involved in Philly Future from a technology, business, or management capacity – let me know at phillyfuture at phillyfuture.org.

Here is some background for the open call.

2006 going into 2007 things were looking good. Shoot, they were looking fantastic.

Emma was almost a year old, and my family, while facing some struggles, overall was healthy. I can’t remember feeling more attuned to what my purpose was in life or ever happier and that hasn’t changed.

Work was turning a corner. Coming up were huge projects I was going to be a part of, including the development and launch of the new Comcast.net (which was a huge success).

Philly Future was moving along and growing gangbusters. During 2006 major goals were to find reliable hosting, find a source of funding that could benefit the online regional community, and register as a LLC to protect the service. The Philly Ad Network launched, we found ourselves a great hosting company and the Philly Future LLC was registered.

The volunteer team was under a lot of pressure as my time was being split further and further, but the hope was to grow it into 2007 and to open Philly Future into different forms of community driven management.

My band had broken up early 2006, but we had all remained friends, and to me that was the most important thing.

Online I had taken part in various web projects and discussions that centered on subject matter I cared about, including the norgs conversation. It’s an ongoing concern of mine that we seem less informed as a society. How can that be with the growing Web and our ever growing media/news scape?

Mind-blowingly, some folks had even started to seek me out for opinion in matters related to web development, online journalism and social media/software. I was added as a name on a few different projects having to with blogging and journalism.

Sure there were some bumps in the road, and some challenges to look ahead to (college!), but overall, my only complaint about anything was simply that I didn’t have enough time for all that I loved. That balancing priorities was difficult.

What a great problem to have.

That problem – finding ways to balance time among what’s important – took on new dimensions in 2007.

The back injury did a number on me and continues to do so. I think I’ve done well at keeping the downward pull I feel from the leg pain from affecting my work or home, but much has fell by the wayside.

Mom started going into and out of ICU all year long, culminating in her passing due to cancer.

The Comcast.net launch required every spare minute I had when I wasn’t in rehab or at mom’s side.

And just trying to be a good Dad and Husband among these pressures was a struggle.

I’m a roll-with-the-punches kind of guy. So I tried to do what I’ve always done, play the cards I was dealt as best I could. Somethings suffered:

My online writings have been fewer and farther between, as have times where I’ve shared my opinion on topics close to my heart.

My guitar playing has gotten rusty. Emma loves it (she grabs my hand and takes me to our office where my guitar typically sits and tells me ‘getar getar’ :)). But I just don’t play enough anymore. Richelle installed a wall mount for my acoustic in the living room so that I can play whenever the spirit strikes or Emma asks, instead of going to our office, and playing there.

Philly Future is alive. So is the local ad network that is built across some of the regional community’s most popular local blogs. When I look at what the community has done with both these past twelve months, I’m blown away and heartened. And this has been with minimal involvement from myself.

Still, with the decreasing time I’ve had available, things here have not progressed as far as they could and worst – there’s been drift. The volunteer team has shrunk (normal life changes – and I have not been active in leading it). I haven’t spent time promoting the service or being an exemplary user (this is particularly bad). And I’ve pretty much allowed myself to disappear from the local blogging community.

The potential is still here – to build a resource that has positive impact, connecting voices, ideas, people, within our geographical community who online might miss one another, that is grassroots, that is owned by the community. But it remains partially fulfilled.

Most painful has been lost time for friends, both close and not so close.

And honestly, I don’t know how Richelle did it – put up with me and my trials and tribulations.

It is difficult writing this. A few years back, I had wrote something similar following the passing of my 3 month old nephew. I shut Philly Future down feeling that I couldn’t do the service justice and support my family which had just experienced a horrific tragedy.

Back then Philly Future was primarily a group blog. When it was re-launched I did so with a different vision. And I have heard from more than a few the effectiveness of it. I believe in it. People *have* connected where otherwise they might not have. I think that’s important. I can’t help it.

So this time things are a bit different.

There are no tragedies to speak of. Just life’s twists and turns (in my spine’s case… more twists…), that need to be dealt with head on. If I consider my position, I have to consider how blessed I am to be where I am at, with the family and friends I have, with the work I have. If this had happened a few years ago, I might have been a person burdened without health insurance, living in a squat, not only dealing with back pain, but dealing with the cold and a broken heart.

For 2008 I’ve determined that I need to put a time limit on the conservative care I am receiving to determine its effectiveness, and to be honest with myself over surgery. If I take the surgery option, I probably will disappear further from my online activities for a time. I need to focus on my health, and whatever time remains must be for family, friends, and work.

I wish I could do more. I know many who can balance time on a needle and do so much with it. I admire these people. But whenever I attempt to follow in their footsteps inevitably I mess things up. So I need to stick to priorities.

What that means for Philly Future is that I need to secure its future as fast as possible. It needs new management, and a new volunteer team to lead it. I still intend to have a role in it, PF is part of me after all, but for the service to reach its potential, it needs far more than what I can provide it.

If you know anyone who would like to be involved in Philly Future from a technology, business, or management capacity – let me know at phillyfuture at phillyfuture.org.

Thanks to friends and supporters, here’s to 2008!

Karl

I hope you had a great Christmas

This year has been one of great highs and lows. Some years everything seems to happen at once.

Christmas was something special – absolutely the greatest of my life.

Emma’s only 22 months. Not old enough to be encumbered by the complexes about Christmas we surely will lay on her head in coming years, and just old enough to recognize wonder and the specialness of the day.

It was terrific.

I hope you had a merry one and may God bless you all.