Getting back to work after Mom passing away is a weird and strange. I’m still busy reconciling everything in my head and heart.
Funerals absorb so much of your time that you don’t get a chance to think about things until after they pass.
I’ll share some pictures later, but one thing that became apparent from the slideshow that Richelle put together was that she was, most likely, happier now than she had ever been in her entire life.
Ya know, there are two stereotypes of old people who have had extreme levels of tragedy and struggle to deal with in their lives.
One, the wizened old soul who rose above such tribulations and became a font of information and history.
The other, the poisoned heart, who can no longer see the good in much anything, and rails against the unjust nature of our world – especially to him or herself.
Mom grew into someone resembling neither of these.
Instead, as she aged, she became more childlike with each passing day. When I say this I don’t mean unknowledgable – no I mean more aware of wonder. Of laughter. Of surprise. Of the importance of deep hugs and never staying angry and unreconciled. And of never saying goodbye, but of saying see you later and I love you.
It doesn’t seem fair that it took so long to get to this place, and then to have her snatched away.
But at least she did get to this place. That I was there to witness it. And I will be there to share it with my daughter (I hope).